The little ol me

finally!! my own website! yay! feeling the absolute control over my own website with my own ftp access and soon enough username/passwords! muahahah relocated my blog as well as u can see. still thinking what else do i put in there.. i only know taht i would like to have a small section for shout outs and small little interesting things that i see on the web and i should copy. lotsa things to do no time yet. :p miss my baby. quote: i almost forgot what was it like to watch u sleep while i was driving up. its only when i am doing long distance driving can i see that look of peace when u sleep. as i pat your thighs as u sleep quietly in ur corner. watching u hug my pillow to sleep its just a satisfaction i can't get elsewhere but only here with you.

how does one sit on the fence so well? i don't know i am just quite good at it myself. why say that? well i am on the basis of i don't know which decision to sit by. do i wait? or do i run? or do i just move around but in a circular mode. such imaginative takling isnt it. i sit here in a cyber cafe in kl doing nothing but blogging myself, takling to friends and trying to see the picture on a wider scale mode. but the wider the picture the more it becomes blurry but i don't have the correct tools to make it sharper for better viewing purposes. going to cameron's this evening if everything goes well, need to pack alot of things before heading up there. under orders from the owners of the apartment in Cameroons. till then.. life is still going on.. just getting that my life is shorter now..

now i know what does it mean to say "how do you feel about what the other person is feeling?" i say it becuase i know what it means to be lost. what it means to want it so bad but u can't feel it and not at all and get upset cause you can't feel the feelings that you want o feel. you try so hard but the harder you try the more you loose you directions. i feel so helpless i feel so crap... and i can only laugh about it. what to do? respect your needs or respect the needs of others? but how do u know what your other half needs from you. search deeper but the further u search the further u are away from the source of light and the darker the world becomes who will shine that way through?

i don't know where else to look? am not blind but i don't know what to see i don't know what to feel or what to think? i use to think i make the decisions but it seems like i am not. i dont know if i am walking away or am i just moving on or am i just ignoring you. i know ur reading my blog and i know u know how i feel, but the words taht was written were just my feelings, i can't put yourself in my shoes nor can i put myself into your shoes coz we are 2 different person in nature and in everything. we are so much alike but yet again so much different. whats wrong? what am i doing wrong? what i have always thought i am doing right but i am wrong? is there no light? is there no chance to hope? is there no feelings to feel anymore? if only i had more time with you. if only i had more moments to share with you. but i am trying my best to spend as much time as i can with you. but i only have so much time to give. you know that for a fact.. is it so difficult? is tim

what has become of me? am i a walking zombie with no feelings nor pain or am i just hiding the sorrow that i feel, i want to cry but tears doesn't flow, maybe i am not in the right time and place to do so, i don't want to cry, i won't weep becuase its not my tears to weep. i don't want ot weep the tears as i still have a life to go on with. i shall carry this scar and in my soul from now on. it may be a handful but its mine and its mine alone. i shall walk the path i was destinied to walk a long time ago. what goes around comes around. everything sounds so familiar, sound so casual of course , i said it a thousand times over the few years of my life. i guess its time for me to feel the pain and anguish that the others have felt when i played this recording to them. as i sit alone in the dark, i light myself a candle to view the darkness around me. any breathe of mine would blow out this candle and i will lie in darkness again. i found the light but i covered it

Putfile Says Goodbye To Singapore At dawn on December 2nd 2005, Singapore hanged a citizen of Australia, despite a plea for clemency from the United Nations. Whilst Putfile is not a human rights campaigning organization, we believe that if a country must have the death penalty, there is no need for it be barbaric. It is enough of a punishment, and a deterrent, to take someone's life in a painless manner, without having to be barbaric about it. Putfile prefers to not continue to provide our free uploading service to a country that executes prisoners by hanging, a method of execution which can take up to six minutes to painfully execute the victim. For this reason, we are at this time terminating all service to users from Singapore. We shall be happy to restore service following any positive move from the government of Singapore towards abolition of hanging as an execution method. Goodbye Singapore, Putfile. Related Links: CNN - U.N. effort to spare condemned man - h

for those who is reading this blog, please read this and keep all the details of your thoughts and ideas to yourself. i have enough on hand and i think i would prefer to be left alone. please do not mention anything to sandra or myself if we should ever meet up. Please do not ask questions i will not entertain them. thanks. jody

i just registered for http://www.magicstar.be lol.. :) sounds cute it was free so i guess might as well make the most of it. its registered with registerfly anybody care to comment on that provider? it will be my personal website in the future. finally soemthing to call my own. am looking for web hosting space anybody? prefer php and mysql ready if possible coz i wanna post up my files and scripts that i would be using in the near future.. thanks

As the songs plays as i feel the emptiness inside of me. the sense of longing no longer exist. as isabel plays over and over again, i got the words translated partially and it doesn't make me feel better. i feel terrible, its unexplainable. i am drowning gasping for air that i know is insufficient for me to hold on too long. what am i doing wrong? am going against all my believes and all of what i have stood for in my past. is this love so strong that it doesn't matter? is this love so strong that everything is forgotten? but yet am making the mistake am making the moves am calling the decisions and now all is lost.

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what is it about scorpios? are they really vindictive? are they reallly secretive? tell me something i don't know. as i was just browsing across teh vast information library at my fingertips i stumbled upon this little line of information. "You may misuse sex.". at the beginning i find hilarious but up a point of time it didn't anymore cuase one of my collegue said that scorpions are always hornY? its not an insult but its just a misjudge of character. we are not always horny we are also passionate and giving and loving and just plain normal homo sapien. *evil grin* its 5.30pm on a very bright friday afternoon. when i mean bright its very bright!! i had to wear my sunglasses to keep my eyes in its sockets. why do i need sunnies u might ask. well if ur facing a 10 x 10 feet of glass window u might think that ur like 1mil miles away from the sun, well with the aircond blowing u at full speed, without the sun ur ass is like frozen nuggets in the freezer. slippery and

in about 24 hours or so i am going to face the one person that i truly love. though i know its to early to tell becuase i have said it over and over again that it doesn't mean anything anymore. maybe i should just refrain myself from saying it over and over again but yet again how can u refrain something that comes naturally? been working non stop for the last 3 weeks. been making mistake after mistake after mistake. making myself miserable and this has been the most miserable month for the year 2005. cum 2006 it might be a little better but i do not forsee easy going workloads. sighs... for the first time in my life i am unsure of whats to come. all i can do is prepare for the worst and prepare for the best. yeahs egoistically speaking i am being a bitch on the outside and a withering soul on the inside. some say i hide my pain very well, so well that even i myself don't know that am in pain until my memories are jogged by events, words, things, movements, sounds or even pain.

i broke another person's heart again last night. it was terrible cause i could see the hurt in her eyes as she walked out. knowing that its not going to be the same again but i had to do it becuase i had no other choice. i couldn't leave my baby i couldn't allow myself to see her go with someone else. i had to make a decision and i made it knowing someone will fall out. it would have never been baby cause its her i want to be with. its with her i feel different and peaceful. as we both listen to jay chou together, me on headphones and she on hers there is a connection. its invisible but its strong but only we both can feel it. i love her so much

what am i feeling? i don't really know. i don't even know how to explaine the feelings. i can feel the tears swelling up inside my eyes but it just won't flow. why? becuase i won't allow it too. for the first time i am feeling as if i am worth nothing. nothing anybody can say to make me feel better it only makes me feel worst. i just felt a drop, tears just fell across my cheeks.. why am i crying? why am i crying? why am i so weak? whats wrong with myself? what kind of emotion has flooded my mind and heart? your with someone else now but even if u tell me that ur heart is still with me, i sense something else instead. i am sorry i couldn't afford to bring your oversea's on our first month together. i am sorry that i am unable to provide you the love that you always longed for. i am sorry i am not what ur looking for. i am sorry i cannot be there for you when u needed me the most. i am sorry i ever started annything with you when i know i can't make it tot

Baby you're all that I want. When you're lying here in my arms I'm finding it hard to believe We're in heaven. Oh, thinking about all our younger years, There was only you and me, We were young and wild and free. Now nothing can take you away from me. We?ve been down that road before, But that's over now. You keep me coming back for more. And love is all that I need And I found it there in your heart. It isn't too hard to see We're in heaven. Now, nothing could change what you mean to me. There's a lot that I could say But just hold me now, Cause our love will light the way. Now our dreams are coming true. Through the good times and the bad I'll be standing there by you.

how do i start? its 1.30am long time more before i start work. work, it seems to be the only thing which i can do so far. what happened? i called it off. its over between the both of us. i guess i should be able to hack it. need to stop reminding myself that its over but then hand gets itchy. lol. yeahs. 6 mths, not too long, not to short just alrights. yet my itchy self just can't sit still. expected it long before it started, just wanted to see how long i could hold on. i guess 6 mths was my limits. adding to the fact that i travel every weekend, well almost every weekend back to keep the relationship alive i am surprised with myself. am i so devoted? pretty much, i would do anything to keep it going but i guess it will take more of me. there is only so much of me i can give out. why do i always have to give? i need to stop giving, i am emptied faster then i am replenished. what do i want? someone to care for me to hear me out to read my thoughts about what i need. is it love? is

sighs, its difficult to live when everything is crapped up. so crapped that u feel crapped that ur crapped yourself. its freaking 2am in the morning and i am still up coz i am sleeping but i don't waant ot sleep yet. after talking to you i put on my thinking cap. what was i thinking? how u don't say i love you anymore, i guess you got your ground so i should do the same. potential target? so far i don't see anyone but wai ling. lol. i definately won't date cat! .. she won't date me! lol.. krristy.. nahs. 2 femme.. i need someone who is versatile. lol. don't bother about me.. am just crappin here. life sucks. am gonna register for a line once i get my pay check. yeahs coz this stupid prepaid is definately getting on my nerves! stupid prepaid that won't allow incoming calls. i never knew it was incur cost. sighs stupid sing tel. stupid singapore. imagine how desparate stuart was when he couldn't contact me. he called cat. hehe asking cat if i was wi

Hey baby, my heart melted when i read ur bloggie. love it so much. the feelings is like rushing back to my veins, thru my blood to my heart, pump it up and made me feel alive again. how i wish i could tell u how much i love u. Been busy with work the whole day today, got 376mails, now left 151mails. lol. phew..~ Ure in a meeting right now, miss u so much. wanted to hold u close to me. weekday lover? nahs, i dont think i want that. thou i may have naughty thoughts. (Wink) but if u want it, let me know lo. magicallymine sounds very nice baby. i think it has been ages since u blog such a long bloggie. :) silly baby, of cuz u haven lost all ur sense. if u have, gawd, i guess u wouldnt feel anything? to tell u the truth, i am feeling speechless as i am typing this bloggie and reading yours at the same time. my mind, heart and soul was flooded with emotions that i couldnt express it in words right now. all i could think of is that i just wanna hug u close to me, just like how i always do. we

its my first time feeling such an emotion flood. my girlfriend of close to six months took the afternoon bus heading back to KL. when she left i didn't feel such emotion until when I came home, i opened the door and the room greets me with nothing but quietness (if there is such a word in the dictionary). what has happened to me? have I lost all my senses? what happen to the strong Jody that once never knew what was loss and what was pain and misery? what am i feeling? the last i checked this was called love. the love for a person that know's no boundaries. the feeling that makes u warm inside out even if the temperature is below icy cold. words cannot express how I feel, well perhaps it can. Love songs, ballads and poems and perhaps hundreds of other written sentences, I think I can safely say that these are the words that can describe the emotions and feelings I have and I am feeling inside at this very moment. Then again I feel this each and every moment that I think of her.

  

 

My Baby 

omg, havent been bloggin for 15 days. gawd where have all the blogging been? hehe well lets just do a good update a quick one too. 27th October - 2nd November Pre Nation Party Trauma. Preparation, orders, faxes, notebooks, systems, wires, cables, clothes, party clothes, more party clothes, softwares, wireless, wifi, mouse, everything IT has to be brought to make my mobile station there online. lol hectic and baby was there to accompany me. :p hehe love my baby as she accompanies me while i work while i play while i sleep, while i shower while i walk while i take the bus, while i eat while i do anything i suppose. :P last minutes preparations sucks.. hahahah 2nd November - 8th November NATION NATION NATION AND MORE NATION!! lol party 24/7 literally here is our schedule timings. 12pm - 6pm morning party 9pm - 3am main party 3am - 8am after hours party the same thing goes on for 3 days and 3 nights. lol and i can feel the energy drainign out. i had 7 bottles o

hehe. i promised my baby that i be blogging today so here i am. :) i was suppose to be blogging last night but i kinda didn't have the time nor did i have the idea, plus i kinda forgotten about it. well i was 2 engrossed into developing my first poll script. :) where? u can view it in http://www.fridae.com/snowball yeahs. :) i love scripting! well back to my blogging. am late last night and i am early this morning. am @ the office at 9am and nobody is around. how boring! i left office around 2am last night, went home showered and then watch a little of starsky and hutch. (crap movie) hehe well i had to relax my eyes with a moving pictures. :) what else is new? hhmm am driving up to KL tonight, yes wait.. with a collegue of mine. suppose to bring her go for real food! hehe well still thinking where 2 bring her too. here is a few suggestions.. 1. yong tau foo (old town) 2. sour vege + claypot rice 3. bah kut teh (sungei way) 4. mamak (jalan 223) 5. paris (ss2) an

helo.. :) today is thursday and i have a movie to catch tonight. what did i do last night? went to beach road to check out my bus tickets (boos tickets) lol. :) and to purchase one for my own return to KL on friday night which is tomorrow night. yay! so nice ya? hehe going back to see my baby love. what about dinner? had 4 pieces of bread and 2 pieces of ham and 1 can of beer. (root beer) well i have anchor in the fridge so its not that bad. yeahs 6 pack beer and 6 pack root beer. funny isn't it. also have orange juice for it. delicious. i got 2 packs of yoghurt which i can't eat now coz i am having my time of the month. crappy yeahs! since the weekend is so near!! of all time. blehs.. lol. happened 2 baby as well last weekend, now its her turn to tease me. haha. :) okies got to go back to work. see you laters.. tata

started work at 8am and stayed up late in the office last night to mend some things up on the web. wanted to buy a replica swatch watch but someone else beat me to it and i decided it wasn't worth the money. RM11.00 is alot of money nowadays. *giggles* the clock was approaching 10 and i think my body alarm just buzzed me that it needs the bed and it needs to hear a sweet melodic voice on the phone. so i decided to pack up and head for the door. on the way back dropped by the XO fish bee hoon soup shop by my apartment to have something to fill my hungry tummy with. flipped through the menu and stopped at the fried beef noodles. been meaning to have some beef for a while so i decided to make my stomach dreams come true. the food came by and i had a bite and decided it was just meagre tasting. malaysian food would b much better anytime of the day. :) (no offence) couldn't finish the food so i left 1/3 of it sitting there on the plate while i paid the damages and left. headed for t

I don't know if its just be being over jelaous of am i just seeking attention in the feemest way possible. (throwing tantrums). That very night well so to speak last night as a a night i just wanted to spend some time with you and may it be over the phone or may it that i fly over that very instant but that wouldn't be very logical would it? You weren't there. where were you? you didn't sense my urgency? u didn't sense my need? am i so bad at giving hints? well u left. to see someone else. (isn't that the right term?) and i was left alone in my room. so i decided to venge my anger out but i had no output. i didn't want to jeapordize my relationship over small matters so i decided to just let you know a little earlier that ophelia is interested in joining fridae. yes my ex ophelia. well that didn't seem to bring about anything so i guess that was that. made a few calls and a rough plan was formed but it didn't turn out all that well. so i went to slee

helo people, its friday and i have nothig to report as usual. how boring isnt it? blehs! life is boring, its going to be mom's birthday and i don't know what to get for her. esh. :P blehs.. lol ... am returning back to the land of the living (KL) hehe tonight @ 10pm. sorry haven't been updating my blog for like forever, well just 1 week. why? coz nothing much been happening, went to beach road last night (golden mile complex) - gawd it feels like am in thailand! hahahah all the thai people were there and they were speaking their language sounds so cool. went for a massage on tuesday (4th october 2005) ended up with neck & shoulder pain for the rest of the weekend.. just great. hahah. where? holland village shopping center. how much? SGD18.00 for 20 minutes of pain. the guy who massaged really made it really painful! no stripping required :P visited aunt nancy on wednesday, mad rush i tell u jb-singapore customs. sighs even on a wednesday when its suppose to be a quiet

left the office at 5.30pm and guess what time i reached jb. i arrived almost 1 hour later then i expected. arrived at 8.30pm. sighs, what a timing isn't it? well the traffic was just okies for the # of buses and cars but its always the long-ass trailers and long-ass lorries that jams up the whole highway. singaporean government should redirect all these trailers/lorries to tuas checkpoint coz its bigger there rather then jamming them up at woodlands checkpoint. walked to from the mobil petrol station on woodlands road to the checkpoint and decided to wait for the bus, just my luck the bus i took was the sbs and later on 5 yellow buses lined up butt 2 butt at the bus stop. should have taken the yellow bus! lol could have changed but decided to stick 2 1 lane. changing means moving up and down and with a backpack i don't really wanna move around 2 much besides i was sweating like a dripping tap. so 2 keep cool i stayed put. had dinner @ my aunts place. left jb larkin at 9pm a

Scorpio, the Scorpion, is the second sign of the Water triplicity and the eighth sign of the tropical zodiac. This powerful, but secretive sign is ruled by Mars (action; passion) and Pluto (obstruction; transformation; regeneration). The key phrase for Scorpio is "I desire". Symbols for Scorpio are the scorpion, a ground-dwelling killer with a poisonous sting in its tail and the eagle, a far-seeing predator soaring above petty problems into the spiritual sky. Scorpio's real involvement is not primarily based on love or even pleasure, but on the control and understanding of human emotions and the role they play in the mysterious processes of life and death. Though Scorpio natives may not spend their lives pondering the mysteries of life and death, they are inquisitive and probing, fascinated with how things and people work. Mental and physical powers of recuperation are remarkable - and truly evolved (eagle) Scorpios can learn to use their power to help and inspire

You have a dark and mysterious style which, combined with an irresistible personal magnetism, creates a fascination in members of the opposite sex (and the same sex - or any other sex that happens along). You ooze sexual excitement and require a partner (or partners) who can keep up with your marvellous capacity for taking everything to the limit - and beyond. Scorpio, although a feminine (yin) sign, is ruled by Mars, the warrior god and Pluto, the king of the underworld. This fiercely potent combination creates tensions in your internal balancing mechanism between the male and female polarities. Your emotions run deep and your faculty of intuition is remarkably accurate, so your antennae can prick up and pick out a prospective partner at first sight. You need however to keep a part of yourself private and personal and can react vigorously should anyone have the temerity to trespass in your personal domain. Possessing great self-control, combined with intellectual ability and creativit

Your sexuality is deep, all-consuming and intense. You seek transformation through the sexual experience, which you never undertake lightly. Ruled by Mars, the god of primitive action and Pluto the lord of the underworld, you mix primal passion with a profound need to uncover the mysteries of life and death, including and especially sexual ones. Your emotions run deep and your faculty of intuition is remarkably accurate, so your antennae can prick up and pick out a prospective partner at first sight. Scorpio rules the generative organs and so you have no doubt grown up with a heightened sense of the fascination, not to say fear and loathing, with which lesser mortals view sexuality and Scorpio sexuality in particular. You are seen as sexually dynamic, threatening, voracious, insatiable, overwhelming and generally mysterious. This is of course not without foundation and you have been known to take advantage of this fascination, rather like a snake hypnotising a bird before devouring it.

http://www.apple.com/trailers/touchstone/flightplan/index2c.html this is a must watch people. jodie foster at her peak! somehow or rather she definately can act paranoid!

 hmmm just testing as to how to work this. Am using the new picasa Blog This! functionality. :) i don't know what to say other then I love this woman/girl/soul so much that words cannot describe. :)

Hehe Baby! 

Scenery 

UMS @ KK 

UMS in KK 

Floating Mosque in KK 

Sumone I Love 

Cheeky Bum 

Graduation Day 

Baby Love 

sighs, i spent 2 hours @ the immigration checkpoint on the singapore side today. why? well some idiotic technicaly "i wanna make everything perfect" officer was incharge of the lane that i selected to queue up for. yeahs blame me for choosing the wrong lane but how was i to know because by the line i lined for it, a gush of tourist started pouring into the freaking gate. i didn't wanna loose my queue so i waited. dumb wait. next time they should at least put a sign that says, slow worker to alert or notify the queue before hand. 1 hour into the queue i barely moved 10 steps. lol yeahs! some guy from the back decided to release his anger by yelling out "hurry up" in his chinese native tongue. everyone started whispering and noding in agreement. then again what can the guy do , he only has 2 hands 1 pair of eyes and yet still wants to be a perfectionist. how does he do it, spends 2 minutes looking @ u and looking @ ur passport, giving the impression like ur a

wow.. immediate response.. am using the new blogging feature from google toolbar. lol! how cute! not bad not bad. its thursday and its 9pm and i am not home yet. gawd!! am gonna be late! staying back to make sure everything in the server goes well. so far so good.. nothing going wrong, hhmm system going coo coo always gets cranky when i am ont around. lol so i guess i should be staying in the office more often from now on. listening to mp3's while chatting online with friends. blogging, missing my baby. being bored and lonely what else is new. life is boring here in singapore. probably becuase haven't got around much yet. no friends not much to do. no car lol.. lazy to travel public transport. no where 2 go. all the reason i can come up for not venturing the outside world! go home, no web no pc no nothing, just the newspapers and me.. so i guess i might just stay in the office till i have to go home else i have no transport home. hahaha.. will stay till 9.30pm a

baby went back yesterday afternoon with the 5.45pm bus from boon lay. just before departure i had her roaming turned on. yeahs just in case she needs to call me or if she gets into trouble. i wanna make sure she arrives safely and always be contactable. hehe being protective u might say. decided to stay in singapore today. packed my bags this morning .. gonna go walking in jurong east mall later on. sight seeing in orchard road is also possible. sighs, dont know where to go .. my baby not around, everything meaningless. just donwloaded registry mechanic to fix up this pc. have a feeling something is lingering in my system becuase my network access is super slow! dont really have much things running on background and everything is turned off. as in special windows effects. everything is tuned for performance but its still so gawd daymn slow! blehss

To jb with my baby. :) hehe. she's on mc for 3 days but i didn't want to leave her in KL. Need to make sure she eats proper food. sighs am at work and she's at home. i hope she's fine. its raining and i hate it! i need the sun!

arrived at midnight. gawd was stuck for 2 hours in the dumb tuas checkpoint in freaking singapore. gawd!! well watching my baby walking out the door was absolutely just perfect to wash all my blues away. to watch her get in my car as i hold her hands in mine. nothing can ever take her away from me, nor anyone can ever take me away from her. love her so... blogger seems to have added a new feature on its script. "Preview" yay now i can see what i am blogging. my baby just popped her head saying "bloging bloggin again" lol. yeahs .. blogging for her to read. okies going to go home now.. seee u on sunday! or monday perhaps.. derno see when am free and my baby is not around... :P

gawd i have been waiting for this day for a long time. why? becuase i haven't seen my baby for almost 4 days! not very long but long enough. its friday @ fridae. yeahs. hehe its going to be 3 mths @ work. confirmation decisions is up for balloting! will i be voted as member @ fridae or will i be kicked out? please also take note that i am the one and only programmer available. sighs what is life without action. my blog is getting bombarded with lotsa crap comments again. how boring. well am going to go meet up an "old" friend from fetch tomorrow. her name is marcia liew. her nick name is liewgirl@hotmail.com .. (hahahahahahahaha) funny but odd. oh wells will add on later after lunch. have to start with work. oh yes krristy just passed me a initial D vcd so am gonna watch it tonight with my baby while she reads her recruitment papers. yeahs she's gonna get a job here in singapore and i am gonna be with her. yay!

9.50am - checked into the office. as usual my boss was in before me. :) 10am - worked on my downloads that was running through the night. 11am - start working... been missing you so much, as i listen to more love songs the warm feeling comes flooding into my heart. pumping warmer blood through my body, arms and mind. as i sit here waiting for time to pass me by as it edges me closer to you. can't wait to hold you in my arms to feel your warmth filling me like water fills an empty glass. as i download the files from my server and as i listen to songs and as i look at your picture on my table i suddenly realise it think about you more then i have every think about anything. can remember your every look, your every movements, the way you sleep, the way you drive, the way you wear my cap. baby i love you so much. if there was a way to measure how much i love i think all the scales in the world wouldn't be enough. am chatting with ashie and marcia at the same time and ash just told

day 4 last day, changed flight ticket to fly with baby coz jealous! lol ya.. hehe so cute am i not? all for love for the extra few hours with baby anything is possible!. return gown, little italy with jin jin, back at karamunsing plaza, wanted foot massage but then next time. spent alot of time with baby in the car whcih is something i have always wanted becuase finally i am in her territory and she is the driver, she leads me whereever she wants to take me. am all her... >< went to pick up bread and then headed home, drove to make flight bookings at the airport which was fine and dandy, the feelings of being in love is just so wonderful. i wanna spend teh rest of my life with her. went home packed and got ready, had my last sweet and sour pork rice at the shop for memories! lol, had alot of laughter at the office with mom and dad and popsicle! i love my baby so much!

day 3 graduation day! pictures will tell it all. got sunburn! blehs, had beef noodles for breakfast and mom got me sunnies. how nice! sat outside the pickup truck on the way back. went clubbing with my baby in kk @ a club called "bed". ex name was beach club. hehe and guess what. i sat for the first time in my life, on the back of a 4x4. something i have dreamt of doing for ever so long. never thought it would come true. life is just wonderful!!

day 2 today is saturday and i have nothing better to do in life but to just hang around. truthfully speaking i have absolutely no idea what happened today. lol. all i can remember is that i helped mommy and sandra dress for the special day tomorrow in the evening. yeahs graduation and sandra has to work this evening. we had dinner with sharon's parents and i was watching my baby at work. gawd i love this woman. in the afternoon, we went into the city to get contact solutions then we went to rhb bank. then we went to meet arthur for a coffee bean break. how nice isn't it? yeahs, using arthur's notebook to surf the web. from the first glance the ultimate "jealousy" feeling slowly seeping into my blood stream and into my mind. why? don't really know u would have to ask my heart. it happens when u least expected it and when u know your really in love with someone but yet you feel secure but not secure. as we got back, about an hour later sharon's parents arriv

day 1 Note: everything from now on will be short notes, will elaborate when i have the time. hhmm can't really recall waht did i do today. woke up really early coz i couldn't sleep. too excited you could say so i lazed around in bed while my baby slept like a baby she is. mass-sms'ing while she lay asleep in my arms. couldn't stand it started poking and teasing my baby to wake her up. had a little "morning exercise" to wake her up totally. finally we were done and came down and was greeted by mom. :) yeahs my baby's mommy (shall call her mommy from now on) and then went down for to clean myself up, slept in today so it wasn't so bad, after a nights worth of travelling. its nice to be able to finally wake up in the room of the woman i have been wanting to be with for the last few years. (not exactly but then almost there) i wonder why i never visited her, recalling back then i was in uni and money was tight and then i was with someone else so chances di

Touch Down! Am in KK (Kota Kinabalu) and i am visiting my baby. :) gawd the airport is small but its nice. hehe no long walks needed. Baby came to pick me up in her red kenari with 3 of her best friends behind, namely suan ai, sharon and may (short for marilyn). miss my baby so much. flight was absolutely terrible, the people sitting beside me was being really noisy gawd drove me up the wall. headed down to yo yo for a quick drink, had green tea with coconut jelly, something like nata de coco. lol soon after saw jordan and a couple of other friends of miss sandra's. after sending everybody home we headed home ourselves. :) didn't have time to meet any family members since everyone is sleeping by the time i got back. but the room is just so cute. will post pictures soon.

my baby flew to kk today. leaving me behind. hehe.. am following her footsteps soon. am leaving tomorrow afternoon. yeahs going to see my baby graduate. isn't it wonderful? life is full of unexpected things to happen. its wednesday, boy it takes a while to come! hehe.. i just had lunch and now i am just lazing around, 2 much food probably. have to remember to buy the papers for my baby later on and perhaps steal the old ones from here. okies gotta go back to work.. check u out laters.. :) can't wait!!

tuesday morning, gawd time passes by so slowly its dreadful!. its the last day of work for my baby and she is flying off tomorrow afternoon. i will be seeing her there the following day. it will be our small little honey moon trip. its my bosses birthday today, we bought him a cake yesterday and they bought him flowers today. how cute. :) hehe forgot to bring my mob to work, left it on the desk charging. hehe.. traffic into singapore was massively heavy today. yeahs just all jam block at the jb customs, yeahs typical bottleneck plus all the motorbikes doesn't really help ease problems infact it adds onto it. sighs typical singaporeans and malaysians, tak mau kalah! lol life goes on...

watched dukes of hazzard on saturday, recommended movie! hehe.. but i don't understand the role for jessica simpson in the movie, gawd she was so bitchy looking, she was merely selling her body for information and other things. other then that we went around petaling street early in the morning to check out some sunnies for myself and i couldn't find any how boring. sighs oh well, made a quick turn coz baby wanted to see borders in berjaya times square. that was where we ended up watching dukes show. hehe after the movie, we decided to head out for some food and ended up in paramount o & s restaurant to have food, with my little phone battery fading away i vaguely got debbie's message hehe but i guess it was a little 2 late coz we already started eating. hehe. headed back home for a little nap. yeahs baby 2 tired, skipped work becuase of this "tired" feeling. hahah typical work life, tired when ur suppoes 2 work and energetic when ur not working. hahaha! had d

its 4.21pm and it feels like eternity, i miss u baby, i am putting this messages all over the place, i dont think there is a need for our blog anymore, this could very well be our blog. heheh gonna make it silent. hugs baby. its easier that way so that only u and me can read it and i just have to post @ one place. what u think? i guess i shoudl ask u later since am gonna see you then. love ya baby so much!

i will see the sunshine and i will feel the warmth of your body next to me while i sleep at night. watching u as u sleep silently in my arms. i love you baby and i will always do.

life is like a box of chocolates, what u see is what u get, but u wont know the contents of the chocolate till u put it in ur mouth, its either u swallow it or u spit it out. my life is full of funny thoughts and happenings. i hate this absolutely, but what can i do? am so used to being myself that i find it difficult when the other party is just so weak. i dont know, life is just mis-leading me entirely. i am working in a company which doesn't know that i am still not single. sighs. am stuck in a contract now and i can't get out. just when i am beginning to like my work, personal problems starts arising, what am i doing wrong here? am doing the wrong thing? i dont know, every step seems to be wrong and i dont know how to turn back. i need guidance but no one is able to understand me completely. can't really rely on my gf becuase she just started and its kinda hard to explaine the responsibility that i have on my shoulders. i feel so heavy and i am just barely hanging on, b

its only 300km. barely a 4 hours drive. but yet its so far away. i can't just drop by to say hi, i can't just give u a kiss good night when i need you the most. i can't just hug you when i need it the most. Its only 5 days, but its like forever. submerge myself with work to allow time to pass me by, but with the constant messages to say that your not well and i can barely do anything? i am barely hanging on my own and i have to worry about you. u tell me not to worry but u think thats possible? is there such a thing? if u can find me a couple who doesn't worry about their other half constantly if you can then i might just back off and learn how to do it. i will have learn how to trouble friends just to look after my own gf, haha. me being the person who hate relying on someone else to do their work for them. its fucked, you know that for a fact!. ur sick and u don't eat for a whole day, and i am not suppose to worry, you tell me u were constantly sick when u were yo

good morning blog readers! today was extremely early to the office, arrived at 10am. yeahs all the way from jb. i guess today was just a good day for me. had my lunch along the way, bau sambal or so i was told it was called. its a type of bread with sambal clipped between like a burger. lol. have always loved it since i was a little girl. first one to the office i was surprised, well life goes on, blasted music for a while then people started pouring in. well been surfing the web and reading my emails and writing emails as days go by. by the way, for u all out there, am not staying in singapore anymore, can't hack the living conditions in woodlands hahah spend the same amount of time getting home to jb and getting home to woodlands so u can call my maxis line at night, i can entertain u then. hehehe will be home approx 9++ every night except thursday night. why? becuase my aunt has classes so she picks me up directly from town. heheh

havent been blogging for days now have i? whats new? nothing much, mom's getting better and life is getting warmer. hehe yeahs can't wait to go to KK to see my baby graduate. uh huh uh huh! went to watch charlie and choc factory, gawd it was crappy! lol even my love said so. well it was a kids movie anyways, can't really expect much. well am working hard now, getting things done as soon as they can. spoke to my baby lsat night, heard they fenced up the areas for the klcc train or its surroundings of some sort? is our malaysian society so barbaric? i wonder if we need electrical fences? but then again there are "kampung" people who got electrocuted walking across it so i guess it dont really make sense anyways.. lol i guess what we should do is create a new type of sensor to automatically deduct money from bank accoutns if a person is caught crossing the railway tracks. now wouldnt that be funny! its wednesday 2 more days to the end of the week.. sighs how time pas

its my collegues birthday today and i bought her a cake. how nice. :) see am a good girl. 2 other ladies went out for lunch with a guy so i guess the office is just so quiet. am flying back to see mom tomorrow. nothing much i can do for now except to keep her company and my grandma too since she is flying with me. sighs.. poor mom, next time i hope she keeps her meals often and regular. scare the wits out of me. she has 2 stay in the hospital for another 1 more week for observation and i guess its for her own good since she can't eat or drink anything solid. she's on drips so far and i guess i should just buy her a few books to read as she might be bored to death in the hospital. after surgery u can't really move so i heard but then again doens't u back hurt for lying 2 much? i wonder.....

indeed the book is absolutely useful. Never have i travelled in such a way. what happened? hhaha thsi would be interesting!. got off from work at 6.40pm and decided to take the bus back. upon reaching the intersection saw my 145 buss whizz by so i tot i might just take the 16 bus to orchard to take the mrt from there. as i cross the road there goes 16, all in all meaning i would have to wait for another 10 - 15 mins for the bus as peak hour ends at 7pm in singapore. so i decided to hop on the next bus exiting the bukit merah bus int. 123 was up next, hopped on and pulled out the book and realise that it doesnt go to any mrt station so i read through the book again decided to stop at alexander road and got off. waited to see where the next bus leads too and i saw 961. this bus goes 2 woodlands directly but it takes 1 1/2 hours give and take so i guess what the heck save the hassle. so up and in i go lugging my luggage back. while casualy sittign in there i decided to whip up my trendy s

gawd!!! sitting the bus can be a nightmare! especially if its the night bus! body aching from badminton doesnt make the ride any better! well i had single seat all to myself which wasn't too bad. reached the immigration at 4am and woke up at 3am for a toilet stop, didnt sleep till 7am @ woodlands becuase i was 2 tired to go back to the office @ that hour! :p oh gawd how my body acheed!! sighs.. :P

someone decided not to cc me a copy of a work report. sighs i guess i am just no important enough or probably i am sarcastic with my remarks. hehe yay for the first time am running my first administrative scan on my pc. well trusting that my pc is perfectly fine and in working order i guess am just aokies. :) i need to get myself a mp3 player soon enough else i will need to do manual recording into my md. yeahs so old fashion hor? hehe but then what to do? am so poor! anybody has some suggestions? well technically am just gonna be buying a creative zen! :) cheap in singapore i heard but then feedbacks needed. :)

test test . :) heheheh

wow new virus is out! Zotob Virus! . what a name. geez and i tot it was some kinda of green germs. hahaha well just read the details on pc pro. whats with hackers and microsoft windows? its like its a drug, addictive. as long as you they dont get addicted to my pc!

this is a blog from my email. just testing. :)

Strike 2 - One more and I am out! Work overnight weekends and get my credit taken away. sighs. get blown away again from an email this mornign. never expected your own countrymen to actually use you to get credits for themselves. sighs. :) oh well who cares, wont be long anymore i can see my baby. :) as she waits patiently for me at home. hehe.. :)

Strike 1 - becareful of your words backstabbed and used! 2 words that should never exist in a company. hmmm but seems to be very often it gets said around. lol. well.. what would it be like when someone complaines about your script and have absolutely no idea whats going on in there. fakers! lol missed my baby as usual. nothing new moving around singapore. went to jb for dinner with my aunts. yummy! i had yong tau foo with rice. gawd the chilli was good! hehe.. 2 more days till i see the one i love. wait for me baby.. am a coming home to love u more!

hhmmm, i took the bus to KL today. 11.30pm bus. supposedly non stop yet again how can u trust malaysian's. ended up in seremban and some god forsaken place between KL and JB. Sighs, adding that the co driver for the bus snores like there is an earthquake makes my sleep totally impossible. So i was up from 4am till 6pm. arrived in KL at 5am which isnt too bed, debbie and wei ling (angels) waited for me at pudu with my car. wei ling accompanied me for early breakfast, partly becuase she was super hungry. been starving herself for the night so it seems. haha.. why did i come back? suppose 2 b staying back but then my love needs me by her side when she shifts into her new place. a new world for her. so i chose to come and be by her side when she needs me the most. helped her move her stuff, bought her toiletries (took from my house) bought bed linens (cartoonish) type from aosinning (something liddat). lol. i am bad with names and faces. lol! well next morning, went to pick her up inst

its friday yaya!. :) sad day though. my baby leaves for KK on tuesday and its only 4 days away. omg! sighs.. i am gonna miss her so much. what to do. sighs.. gonna spend some time with her alone this weekend. gonna bring her to desaru and let her see our side of the beach instead of her end of the beach. lol. how singapore? its aokies, everything is a little cheaper without convertions. hehe. other then that lotsa electrical products here are cheap cheap cheap cheap! hehe.. :P come and visit me!!!

Great movie! good recommendation. eheh.. free tickets too. how perfect. where i got it.. i have my sources.. muahhaha.. actors and actresses were in good tune. there are sad moments and happy and crazy moments but the effects were good absolutely. bcoz of that i came home late and got yelled at my grandma. great.. perfect way to end a day. ahhaha!!

go where? go somewhere la! cannot issit!! geez talk about being nosy! ahahahahha

summary:- stayed home fried some rice cooked some food had some sleep packed some bags showered a few times lazed at home went for badminton went for gathering went for yam char went to sleep at 4am in the morning lol

yes.. was at sg wang to see the pool competition. ended up playing it .. and ended up winning something. yay! :) but i have to go to cheras tomorrow to pick up my prize. geez.. anyways.. its a worth it i think. baby complained about sg wang being so packed as usual. ahahh i guess she was clusterphobic. will post pictures soon!!

its friday! and i want a good dinner!!. where did i go? rofl.. paris.. :P again yeahs. gawd its just so me isnt it. ahhahahaha.. batman begins at 8.45pm for us. THAT WAS ONE HELL OF A SHOW!!! its the show of the year!!! i will have to give that to batman anytime. :p for this year that is and so far. .

what is there to be done at this hour? all i know is that work and work and more work is pilling up the desktop. trying to rush everything as fast as i could while i watch my baby get bored over and over again in the room. tried to finish work early but i just couldn't.. time constraint. sighs.. have to continue another day. went off for dinner with my baby. baby was getting sick so we ended up in paris for dinner. it was just perfect i had 3 big helpings of rice and its just so not me to have so much rice but i dont know.. watching my baby get sick just made my appetite grow! lol.

after the early morning drive back to KL. my baby and i were drained totally but then again i had no choice i have pending work in the office. i drove for an hour and my baby drove the rest of the way home. 2 tired. been driving for the last few days and i am totally exhausted. even spare batteries are totally drained. :) followed me to work and its nice to have someone watch u while u stress out with work .. LOL funny but its just perfect! :)

3rd stop Penang omg. :P will update u later about it. AHAHAH the food is just cannot describe!! ROFL!! sorry doing this to bug WL. ROFL!! i cant stop laughing. i sent her a mms with a couple of pictures and she replied with "bugger". hahahah oh well we spent a night at gurney hotel and the view was absolutely gorgeous. will show it too you soon once i get the pictures loaded up nicely into a pc. kekekeke.. :) we stayed at the highest floor which is the 36th floor! perfect!! :)

Sighs had another cold morning here in cameron's. it was just so cold.. it rained the whole night and i spent 1/2 and hour watching bujang lapuk on tv. 1/2 hour coz it was 2 cold and i need body warmth. hehe. :) dinner was perfect and holidays are just beyond perfect when ur alone with your other half. :)

still in cameron's .. had an early 8.30am morning :) breakfast was superb!! french toast and fried egg. omg just tasty absolutely tasty!! headed of for some strawberry picking and the weather was just perfect. strawberries were wild red colored! move on for a drive and walk around tanah rata and then logged online for a while to catch up with the world. soon lunch came and we headed for the swiss german restaurant that was on the star lifestyle paper. the food was just yummy. baby had the lamb chop and it was just nice except that i dont like black pepper. aahah i had my pork spare ribs (siew yok) omg its just soooooooooooo juicy and tasty and tender with the garlic sauce. ommg u can believe the tastiness!!!!!! :) hehehe

1st stop Bidor for the famous duck leg soup and wan tan mee! lovely and tasty .. will be posting pictures up soon. 2nd stop Cameron highlands, the journey up was simply perfect. not much cars and not too hot and the perfect partner to go up with. althuogh she slept most of the way up

finally!! the day has arrived!! i'm so excited and i just can't hide it!! :P

Sitting on the fence for lunch today. 2 loggerheads due to some unsettled problems behind the scene. sighs.. its hard to be the middle person, it can go either way and both ways aren't the way you want it to be. can't remember myself being in the middle before and due to my nature probably thats why. my nature as in someone who doesn't unsolved mysteries. haha yes definately. as i sit here in my own room in my office listening to john myer something's missing. this is my favourite song. why? becuase i think the lyrics are just perfect. just learnt a new word today. The sick equations:- "FFCC" == Flu Fever Cough Cold ahahah.. just thought of it over lunch table.. i know am weird stop saying it i know it already! i use to get mocked for being weird but now i am being laffed at for everything. the person who does it seems to be having sick equation a couple of days ago. poor her. :) she is alive and well now coz yesterday she had porridge in state. i had dinner a

should i buy? what to buy? when to buy? dilemma's are terrible at this point of time. i shouldnt be buying becuase i need to start saving up for my college fun. yes i wanna go back studying again. what do i want to study? well i wanna have a go at the microsoft certificate. what does it do? it basically teaches you do's and don'ts and how's and when's for microsoft products. basically by the end of the course you would be able to develop your own systems and if u venture far enough u might just edit and create your own type of business. Quote from Microsoft Malaysia Website : "Microsoft certification enables businesses to identify those who have the technical abilities to help them get ahead in their industry by leveraging on the most advanced Microsoft technology." Read More Here... how much will this course cost? a whopping RM11,000. 3 mths completion includes a RM6000 rebate and 12 mths completion provides a RM3000 rebate. which i find intresting coz u