illusion
is this all an illusion? does it really exist? why do i see such similarities? perhaps its just that of a coincidence?
a new mail came into my box just moments ago supplying the answer to that i still don't have the answer too.
and i quote
"nope. u just have a mind of your own that stores a part where it does not give access to anybody."
no words could describe waht was mentioned in the email. the only thing that i can understand is that i lost something and it was so long ago that i don't know that it exist or that i locked it up with a key. word's cannot describe the emotions that runs through my blood veins now. on one hand i feel empty on the other i felt as if i have nothing to lose. yes i have nothing left to loose, i've lost everything and there will never be a replacement.
i have another quote which came in not to long ago and it goes ...
"well, i think it takes a certain level of maturity to respect our partner's need for their own personal space, and mind sometimes. it's not that we shut them out, but there are parts of us that are solely ours, our own individual being. being together doesn't mean melding into one entity with no boudaries etc. n from my pt of view, u're not a difficult person to love".
how far true that point goes only those who has been close to me would know the kind of person that i am in real life. words are merely just a conversation maker, it will not show anybody the true nature of a personal being. By living with them and feeling their hands in yours, looking at them directly in the eyes when they mention the words is the only way for you tell if they are sincere but everyone seems to have loved the way i treated them but i think i have gone to far into making everyone comfortable and me miserable. its time i stop and i mean it when i say it. :)
a new mail came into my box just moments ago supplying the answer to that i still don't have the answer too.
and i quote
"nope. u just have a mind of your own that stores a part where it does not give access to anybody."
no words could describe waht was mentioned in the email. the only thing that i can understand is that i lost something and it was so long ago that i don't know that it exist or that i locked it up with a key. word's cannot describe the emotions that runs through my blood veins now. on one hand i feel empty on the other i felt as if i have nothing to lose. yes i have nothing left to loose, i've lost everything and there will never be a replacement.
i have another quote which came in not to long ago and it goes ...
"well, i think it takes a certain level of maturity to respect our partner's need for their own personal space, and mind sometimes. it's not that we shut them out, but there are parts of us that are solely ours, our own individual being. being together doesn't mean melding into one entity with no boudaries etc. n from my pt of view, u're not a difficult person to love".
how far true that point goes only those who has been close to me would know the kind of person that i am in real life. words are merely just a conversation maker, it will not show anybody the true nature of a personal being. By living with them and feeling their hands in yours, looking at them directly in the eyes when they mention the words is the only way for you tell if they are sincere but everyone seems to have loved the way i treated them but i think i have gone to far into making everyone comfortable and me miserable. its time i stop and i mean it when i say it. :)
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