No No No

world hold on, am coming home.. i've lost the ability to love. i have been losing every single race, every single emotions has been taken away from me. i have no feelings for anything now. perhaps i might just feel again someday but as for now i am giving up on love. just when i thought i found someone whom i can believe in and trust i find myself wondering in the dark again.

what did i do that makes it so difficult for people to understand the simple person that i am? am i such a difficult book to read?

whatever that happened last night was a perfect example of what should have never taken place at all... a simple no could was not accepted. so much love turned into so much hate, how can u love a person who treats u with no respect and expects you to respect them. a case of split personality maybe? sighs, what was once found is lost again..

world hold on.. am opening up my heart and i am feeling what is that i am suppose to be feeling, to feelings of flying freely. there is no better time then now to say i am never gonna love again .. nnot now but perhaps in the future, say somewhere in the year 2007 when i hope by then my dreams have all come true.

world hold on....

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  1. Debz5/04/2006 08:37:00 PM

    this is from my desk calender for this month which i think will be of good advice.

    "POSITIVE - Failur is success if we learn from it"

    i like March's saying too "CHANGE - Change your thoughts and you change your world"

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  2. Fro5tByt35/05/2006 01:18:00 PM

    Failur?? dont really know waht's that! hahaha

    keke

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