Smiths Lake Here We Come
Another road trip and another life time of sun sea sand and sexy chicks in bikinis (Hmm MILFS more like it. ) Tee hee hee
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Its mine its mine
Its all mine! Finally settled the car and now I have nothing else to worry about. Next up is to own my own little place to call home for now.
Working hard
Much to be done but with my lovely Cheeky by my side I'm doing alrights. From my S2 mobile
Funny
How when I intend to view units/apartment at a particular suburb ... there is always shootings.. I want a townhouse! By hook or by crook I want one! Give it to me... Perhaps I should be moving closer to the city then.
3 Years and moving on ..
Its when your house comes crumbling down (literally) that you finally find where you actually stand and how far you've fallen. Much have change me in the past couple of months, am I the same person I was before? Just that I a little more optimistic in life. Can't take too much of other people's problem into your own mind... can't care too much .. its just so not me.
Another weekend
Has passed... The feelings are still lingering. Dang daymn it. What more can go wrong? Never knew prawn noodles can be so yummy when home cooked.
A New Chapter
Begins after almost 7 weeks since the break up. Do I still feel hurt? Absolutely without a doubt but I am letting go as I move along. Mom asked if I wanted to head home but I told her no, I spent so much just to come here and I think its fair that I continue living here and fan for my own and my dog. With help from friends around town and also from home it makes it easier to chug-along and look out for a new tomorrow. Am I still upset? Part of me still does. One can only learn from lessons and take it with a pinch of salt and then say "Hey" snap out of it! Will we ever be friend? Maybe somewhere down the road but I doubt it. Such drastic actions that was uncalled for pretty much calls for a much longer mourning period.
The war had officially begun
If you wanna party all night don't forget the promises that you have made and the responsibilities you have undertaken.
What happens next
Feels like a movie sometimes. I wonder if I could fast forward two years from now to see what have I become.
The dog
Given her a choice.. Willing to release her from all dog responsiblity. She wants to think about it? So its true. Lol. What a fool I am for being so naive. Why didn't I see this before? have I lost my touch?
I wonder
Reminder to one self, after breaking up with someone, you have to be mindful with what you say or words or comments can be interpreted differently.
How is it even possible?
How is it possible for her to be sick after she returns when she was absolutely healthy before she went ... It doesn't add up.
An Excerpt From an Online Blog
There are things that I need to tell you and have been thinking it through very much. Have been having all of these thoughts for some time but didn’t know how to exactly say it to you. Hasn’t been easy as I truly feel that there is a barrier that makes it extremely awkward to vocalize my thoughts let alone have a casual conversation. By writing here for you to read, you have a choice on what you would like to do; to go on reading or alternatively just not read further or even delete this. It is basically your choice as in many other things. You said that so many people have been inconsiderate or unappreciative of the things you have done for them. At the same time, I personally feel that that’s how it’s been for me It pisses me off so bad that you just decided that we are to stay as friends.... It sucks when it feels like being placed in a suspense account to be written off like a bad debt. I aint saying that changes don’t happen but being kept in the dark really doesn’t help. Maybe in
Tennis anyone
The rallies were short initially, almost always hitting the net. Spend most of the time picking up the balls. Spend even more time walking outside the court to pick up more balls. Surprisingly we came back with a couple of new ones. Perhaps this time around in my relationship I haven't been picking up the right vibes off her. Not giving her a chance to tell me whats wrong. Did I not provide not enough windows of opportunity? Late night chats didn't help? She said I slept too soon. Maybe I wasn't sensitive enough? Maybe I wasn't susceptible to changes without consultations? I didn't like to be put in a corner. I am easily swayed in decisions but only with the right nudge. To many factors and thoughts. Its putting a lot of unnecessary weight on my shoulders. Its over mutually but yet I am still giving it so much thought. If only I could rewind history and take back the words that started it all but that would mean today wouldn't come and I wouldn't have en
Saturday
Finally the cleaners arrived. Missy had a grooming and she came fluffy and sweet smelling. Reminds me of history when we first had cleaners, it was this Chinese old and young lady. Initially they were good but then I think they just didn't understand what I meant by scrubbing. We fired them and hired Terry from House Prouds. It was a good move. Though we initially wanted to clean the house ourselves but we it took up too much time. Perhaps I used too much "we" here. In the eyes of the other, it was you who wanted the cleaners, it was you who wanted this and that and everything else. To her whatever she does is wrong. I am dominant by nature and it takes a lot of gap filling to really release the possibility of not being so domineering. Maybe the message didn't go across.
Thursday Bloody Thursday
Badminton in SOP. How should I approach the bench. What should I say? Should I even say anything? I'll just play badminton I suppose. I moved across to the A courts and didn't say a word. How could I, I was still in shock! Still trying to get it to sink into my head that I no longer need to argue over things like who should brush Missy's teeth, who should cook or shouldn't cook. No longer need to come and worry about whats for dinner. Don't need to think for three now just for two. No need to worry about the next step in the relationship and what to do keep it alive and pumping with love. How to change myself to reduce the horrendous words flying across the room. Much has change in me (hopefully for the better). I still have temper flares but rarely or at least I try to control it. How successful it is I am unable to tell cause no one tells me. The break sort of like snapped me out of my illusion that commitment ceremonies do make a difference in the outcome of th
So what difference does it make? I am living with my ex-wife
She'll fly to Melbourne this evening with the other person. To see the dead king tut. It's one of the exhibitions that Melbourne was proud off. I can understand why, the reviews were just outstanding so I read. Gave me some time to think as to how I was going to approach this delicate matter. So delicate that if push with a pinkie on one side it might fold and turn into a monster that will bite my ass. Was asked for dinner by three different persons in a spat of just 3 hours, suffice to say the word was out. Technology has got the better of me. I wanted to run amok but I held back knowing that with all the floodgates of hatred and disappointment in me the outcome won't be pretty. So I sent a couple of text messages to clarify matters. Enough said when the last couple came through, it was as I have expected but I can only reply "Ok", nothing else was coming out of me. I could only bite my tougue. And so the weekend begins, I had plans but I can only execute par
Badminton - Wednesdays
Its guaranteed that it is going to be awkward. I'd have to see her and maybe play with her, a tough choice to make. I tried to change my feelings but its ridiculous and near impossible to do that in 1 day. Daymn it! Why must she do this to me?
After 4 long years .. its finally over
What's over? Our relationship. Our marriage. Our commitment.. The reason behind it was "I don't love you anymore". Feels like you got slapped in your face and your wondering who slapped you.
My first blog from android
Went too chew chew to pick up missy's food at the same time to meet a new friend
Maccas, JK Rowling, lesbian bloggers: hoaxers take over the world wide web
"Over the weekend and into yesterday, a photograph circulating widely on the internet showed a sign stuck to the window of a McDonald's restaurant telling customers that blacks will be charged $US1.50 extra "as an insurance measure due in part to a recent string of robberies". The sign sparked a storm of disapproval on Twitter with the image retweeted thousands of times with the tagline "Seriously McDonald's"." I thought this was really real. So now what news should we be reading given that even the mainstream news is jumping on the hoax news bandwagon. Read more: http://www.smh.com.au/technology/technology-news/maccas-jk-rowling-lesbian-bloggers-hoaxers-take-over-the-world-wide-web-20110614-1g127.html
