The little ol me

Dear diary, Just got back from jb not to long ago, left around 8ish and arrived back home at 12 midnight. Not to bad given the fact that I wasn’t speeding at all, well I can’t say that I didn’t at all just that minimally I should say. Traffic was easy all the way, coz its not exactly Friday as the new year is around the corner tomorrow’s traffic is going to massively heavy. Sighs traveling is tiring I must say but then again its worth it to be home, am sitting here watching mary poppins as I am typing my blog entry. Too bad I don’t have wifi else I would be able to just wifi instead of typing it out on word. Am using my father’s notebook by the way, the keyboard just sucks, probably because its still brand new and under utilized and I really mean under utilized, if I should calculate the number of times he uses his notebook, I should say I have more fingers and toes to the number of times he has used it. Its new year day after tomorrow...

today is the day. :) what day you may ask. its the day like every other day.. :P

2.00am: went to sleep after forcing myself to watch some crappy chiense movie on tv about this killer starring chow yuen fatt. 5.45am: woke up after a nightmare. couldn't put myself to sleep again, probably 2 tired. sighs what a night. lol. maybe eat too much too. hahaha! then again who cares. 6.45am: left the apartment after showering and getting changed. decided to head to the office early. had no where else to go. my office had always been my solitude. yeahs am weird but its as always its me. :P 9.30am: had breakfast which includes 1 coffee ( yes i have learned to appreciate coffee), 2 half boiled eggs, 2 slices of bread spread with kaya and butter ( very generous i must say ). 11am: went to help cat with some banking stuffs then bought a cake for Jim for this birthday for it falls on the 2nd of February which he isn't here. :P 3pm: had a web visions meeting, quite fruitful i must say. 4pm: still going without lunch. still moving on..... i have a 10pm bus back to K...

coughing is not a good cough. lol does that make any sense at all? it does not to me though. oh well alcohol makes u think/speak weird things. am hungry! i had chicken salad for dinner and 2 stick of pork ribs. is taht the correct way of calling it? met soon suyin at cartel! waht a surprise, well not that i changed much it was pretty easy to detect me! hehe, met my old collegue on the train and i was actually on my way to meet one of my old friends. what a day today. i have so much to do i don't know where to start. sighs... difficult i must say. juggling time isn't my favourite pass time. chinese new year approaching, whats the rush? take it easy but who ever does? i hope the phuket trip was good from what i read. will be visiting phuket at the end of the year again. hehe perhaps this time i would be going with someone else. who knows, i don't and i will leave it that way. :)

ohs.. it just went by. hehe! oh well its all good. :P the weekend just went by just like that. didn't do much just lazed around alot. as usual, hehe. went to watch "in her shoes" not too bad i must say that it can be quite draggy and boring. why i say it? because someone fell asleep while watching it. i wonder what issit between me and sleeping partners's. ahha! guess am kinda hooked with it. :P no offence people but just that my gf's like to sleep alot. cooked dinner on saturday night, coz i asked what she wanted for dinner and she suggested home cook food cause she hasn't had much since she started going out with me. *giggles* had chicken herbal soup, with a big huge gigantic plate of brocolli mixed vegetables and a dark sauce beancurd something. of course i had it with rice. delicious i would say. scrumptious meal it has to be. over eating can be really bad at times.

we are in history. we are currently making history. one day we would be read in books by the aliens. lol do they exist? spirits do, ghost, king kong even. hehe i believe that we aren't the only one in this universe. the world is so big, the universe is bigger. space is the last frontier ... would like to take a visit maybe in the future.. my name is written in one of the ships that went up into space. my full name even but i don't know who put it there. it could be me but then again i really have no idea becuase i have no recollection at all. have a meeting tomorrow morning at 10am but am still in the office working and blogging at the same time. haha! workaholic! mirror images haha!! :) life is beautiful when love exist it in. :) its even more wonderful and beautiful when the love is returned. :)

they can be wild sometimes and yet they can be unerving and they can be misleading but those are true or else it would be a lie that u will learn to live wiith. :) its a holiday for me and i am chiling out @ home. going to have pizza soon. then lay back and watch another movie.. oh yeahs i watched V finally. but then memories seems to be challenging me becuase i remember absolutely nothing. then again i was only 10 hehehe.. :P

yay! i got new bedsheets and they are blue in color!! hehe. thanks dear. :) hugs! i got new towel too!! also blue in color which i haven't used it yet. this blog was supposedly blogged yesterday but it got stuck and i decided to just post it directly again. sighs it seems like my email blog script seems to be working sometimes and sometimes not. so wierd..!! well we got up around noon and lazed around the room till 5++ lol watched 2 movies and had breakfast near the bed. wasn't on the bed hahah cause a little difficult to move around. hehe we had nuggets and fish fillet burger curtesy of my 45 minutes wait for the mcdonalds to arrive. geez never knew it took so long. anywho.... we watched V! hehe part 1, it was aokies can't remember anything of that movie hahah probably becuase i don't remember them since it happened like 15 years ago and i was only like 10 or less. can't wait for part 2 which is being ordered and yet to arrive. we to city link to shop around for so...

we are in history. we are currently making history. one day we would be read in books by the aliens. lol do they exist? spirits do, ghost, king kong even. hehe i believe that we aren't the only one in this universe. the world is so big, the universe is bigger. space is the last frontier ... would like to take a visit maybe in the future.. my name is written in one of the ships that went up into space. my full name even but i don't know who put it there. it could be me but then again i really have no idea becuase i have no recollection at all. have a meeting tomorrow morning at 10am but am still in the office working and blogging at the same time. haha! workaholic! mirror images haha!! :) life is beautiful when love exist it in. :) its even more wonderful and beautiful when the love is returned. :)

ahahha! its a fun thing to do when u have nothing to do i guess. <br /> <br /> i just had a subway sandwich after watch memoirs of a geisha. the storyline is absolutely perfect, but the acting was just aokies. chinese will never be japanese and japanese will never be chinese. thats all i can say. <br /> <br /> as i am watching it now i still think its just a so so show. soon you will be able to watch it. u know who u are.. i don't need to mention names. ahha<br /> <br /> oh well what to do this weekend? to go or not to go back? that is the question. i had a nasty fall this evening, as i was running for the bus i slipped and fell on my ass, crapped up my elbow and crapped up my knee too. it was pure pain!! gonna get this huge blue black tomorrow. waaaaaaaaa!!<br /> <br /> anyways life goes on.. hehe!

what else is new? helo? whats going on? anybody there??

you fucking piece of crap! u bitch! two timing fucking bitch! argh! i hate you!! i hate you so much!! the more i think of it the more i hate you! all the lies. all that i have done all that i have said all that i have created. arghs! what the fuck is wrong with me? am i not good enough for you? argh!! CRAP!!! this is not my day nor my year nor my life? fuck! why can't i just fucking let go? this is soooooo fucking annoying!! arghsss!! i should have died the other day... i should have!! torture? yeahs.. definately, plain living torture. i deserved it totally. i should have kept my cool. maybe i should continue moving around, roaming around, settle down? HA! not after this. never! this is fuckeD!! bitch!!

i tried to be perfect but its just not worth it. nothing could ever be so wrong. it's hard believe me. it never gets easy, i guess i knew that all along, if you believe love was in my soul i'd say all the words i know, just to see if it would show that i am trying to let you know that i think i am better off on my own. this heart is so empty, my suicides are so tempting, i don't know how it got so bad. sometimes i go crazy that nobody can save me but it's the only thing that i have. i tried to be the one, but was it worth it? all the sacrifices that i made just to hear you say that i am not ready for the relationship, who gave you the right to judge my life? who gave you the right to tell me what i should and shouldn't do? misunderstanding, it always happens, words doesn't come out as right as it does face to face. texting is that only thing i have to tell u what's in my soul but it doesn't show that i am trying to let you go and to tell myself i a...

testing.. helo.. :)

what is a perfect weekend? a weekend where you spent it with the utmost pleasure.. meeting up friends and loved ones and learning new things and meeting new people. memories are flooding back but what do i do? sighs.. so much questions but no answers am tired of being tired.. ROFL

do i have regrets? i most certainly do. i regretted the display of my blog to the eyes of the world. the uncaring world. why is it so difficult to understand that when you read blogs you will have to read it with an open mind. regrets are often made by those who aren't in control of their lives. they make a decision and then regret doing it becuase even if they know the consequences they still live to believe that the decision was the best. who can i trust? who can i tell? who can i speak too? there was once someone told me that your best friend can never be your lover and your lover cannot be your best friend. now i understand the meaning of it all. being a best friend they will have to listen to rants and grunts about your relationships and how you feel over different situations and different emotions. best friend will advice you on what is best to come and what is best to work with. best friends don't have feelings for you. oh well. its late at night and i can't sle...

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been a while since i last blogged. went to jb last night and had a wheel of a time at the food! yeahs we had my black soup noodles! oh yeahs it was good was bloated when i left that place. oh well its perfect actually hehe haven\'t had so much food for soooooooooooooooooooooooooooo long! haven\'t post in a while now. shall start posting again. am alive again, after a month of moaning or thinking or frustrating. don\'t worry am frustrating myself. :p what else is new huh? live life for ur still breathing!