The little ol me

A wonderful play i must say. i have not loved theatre and i guess this is a good way to start. what was it all about? 4 gay men and how their lives entwined into a web of deceipt, a mountain of love, a fleet of heartache and a pound of honesty. the words used were filled with anger and love. so much truth there was to the real life stories that takes place in each and every soul that walks the earth. i cried while watching the scenes that took place, not becuase it was a sad story but becuase it happens in the real world ever so often, it happened in the very life that i am living in. it lead me to believe that i have made the gravest mistake ever...

dirty dancing movie soundtrack. those were the days, brings back memories how i use to play the movie over and over again becuase it made me feel that dancing isn't a crime. i love dancing, i love to feel the groove in me and watching people around me enjoy the music as much as i do. may it be old songs, new songs, rock, metal or just jazz or even house trance music fills my heart that no walking mortal soul can.

and i quote: "u know what.... there is never a night that i dont regret not hacking it with you ever since i was with her" life changes people drastically and the regrets hurt you the most.

well in comparison with the first edition, i would just say its alrights, wasn't to comedy and wasn't 2 dramatic. there was laughter in the crowd but it wasn't the sort i expected especially after ice age 1. overall i would say it was jolly good show nkowing that it was a free preview for me. oh well, life goes on .. can't wait for cars! hehe

Quote from yawningbread.org in regards to the reason as to why PELU turned down the licensing for Snowball 2004 - "Observations during the Indoor Opening Ball at Suntec showed the patrons of the same gender were seen openly kissing and intimately touching each other. Some of the revelers were cross-dressed, for example, males wearing skirts. Patrons were also seen using the toilets of the opposite sex. The behaviour of these patrons suggested that most of them were probably gays/lesbians and this was thus an event almost exclusively for gays/lesbians;" a little light reading but definately interesting though a little late.

Quote "It occurs to me that many Singaporeans are great complainers. They whine a lot about different aspects of the Singapore government but they often don't actually do anything concrete about their gripes."

Mystery of the no-go Feelin' Good Party Advertised extensively, then cancelled at the very last minute Vinita Ramani vinita@newstoday.com.sg THE party was to have taken place on Sunday, but it was called off at the last minute ? on its eve. . And no one seems able to agree on why the Feelin' Good Party, organised by gay and lesbian media events company Fridae.com, was suddenly cancelled. . Boasting Ministry of Sound as its venue, the party ? which was advertised in local publications such as I-S and Juice, as well as on radio ? was going to feature Australian house music DJ Kate Munroe. . According to a press statement issued and published on its website by the organiser, the same entity behind the banned annual Nation gay party, the "Ministry of Sound received a telephone call from local police demanding that the party be cancelled". . Its CEO Stuart Koe added: "Feelin' Good is simply a party, not unlike any other party held at clubs all around Singapore.&

nothing to report.. LOL! movie tonight @ 1915, ICE AGEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE 22222222222222222222222222!! :p hahahah welcome to the real world ladies and gentlemen, i hearby declare that today will be the day that i release myself for my black skies and dark clouds and white lightning lines! its a brighter day!

sighsssss....... blogger.com didn't get my post and everything was deleted! fark. oh wells, was just commenting at the party that was held at Happy with Kate Monroe from sydney at the dj booth. it was awesome, despite the fact that feeling good was cancelled becuase authorities didn't really like our idea of a party at MOS. i have never heard anything quite as good since liquid room. the times i missed her when she played at natio 04 was the one thing i regretted. the tracks that were played, the dancing on the podium, the move of the crowd , the whistling, the screaming, the jumping, the sweat that drips down my back, the emotional rollercoaster that has been haunting me the last few days suddenly disappeared fillin me with nothing but the bass and music from the loud speakers around me. smoky rooms, iced alcholic drinks, and sexy women all around just made my day. words can never express how i felt last night when all was out and loss she brought the music back to where it be

blog still down and i am getting annoyed! someone asked what happend to my website.. what did happen to my website? i don't know. its 5.15 and i am so lazy to get out of this chair. ekeke.

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At the rate that i am going i can compile enough sunrise and sunsets for my picture gallery, how i love silent moments and silent offices. nobody to bug you nor to disturb or asking you have u done this have you done that. lol its midnight and i am blogging before i head home. had kfc for dinner, crappy piece of drumsticks.. skinny ass chickens! can't help them bird flu going on, can't grow too much. haha! here i sit watching the statistics going through my pc, the numbers and digits flushing down like dripping water from a broken tap. stats are good but the end results are fucked? whats going on? well at least this time there is someone else to watch the server. its nice to know someone with better knowledge of the system is looking through it with me. aaahss, its always nice to know when your not alone in this lonely, quiet and cold world. the world that we call earth..

Got an sms from streamyx this morning saying that i have outstanding bills to pay. rofl u know the funny thing about this? i ended this contract with streamyx owing me 1 mth worth of bills because i overpaid almost "2" years ago. lol!! they just have the most perfect system ever! lol!! Wednesday went on like usual, nothing special except for some stupid settings in the server that didn't get the system going. Had lunch at my future apartment. hehe.. :) can't wait till august woo woo!! stayed back late again as usual. lol, went home and watched ER, not bad a show actually. suppose to continue watching some other show after that but i think the fatigue starting creeping up on me. dooozed of too sleep not to long after.. there end of the day!

it would have been today, but i threw it all away. how beautiful life becomes and how horrifying it will be when you don't know what you have until you have lost it. after months of putting them blame on myself i have learned to cherish the things that i am lucky to have and learn to appreciate life in a more meaningful way. it was a painful journey to endure but all ends well when you know ur learning from it. quote " Oh, c'mon smile a little smile for me, Rosemarie What's the use in cryin' ?"

its tuesday today and its CSI night! hehe.. new season of CSI las vegas airing tonight on channel 5, not going to miss it. its 8pm and i am about to head home. its been a long day today and i am tired. lol.. to much sleep i think been really piggish and its not a good thing. rofl! catch ya later alligator!

i like trebuchet MS. its so cute!! hehe its 8 o klok and i am in the office. its dead silent but its houses 5 living souls. why is it so silent? i wonder.. lol!

monday horror! lol. after reading back my blog then should i realise i have so much typing errors! oh well who cares, nobody seems to be complaining. its episode 9 for l word now... wonder whats coming out for episode 10, sighs, its not as expected but its the total truth of the lesbian lifestyle in my personal opinion. so sad sad story, do all lesbians go through such things? are we all so difficult? so fickle? so emotional? so weak? only a woman will know.. aren't we all women? well firstly i think those who are reading this blog are just the female society. :P am i right? or am i so dead wrong? :P

woo woo. first time in my life time i spent the whole of a sunday afternoon at home. doing nothing but sleeping, eating, surfing, watching, listening and showering. lol! i feel like a pig! hhmm but am a monkey not a pig though henceforth i guess i should be called a lazy monkey. oh wells it is a sunday and i am fully entitled to being lazy. it gives me a little time to myself to realise i should learn to live with myself instead of living for someone else, don't you think so? for those of you who wonders why my blog address is constantly changing its becuase of the mind instability of Jody Tan. lol, reason being i like this particular blog name \"magically lost\". its how i describe my current condition even if i am quite stable and not so lost as before. am not lost now i know what i must do and what i will do and shall do in the near future. i have everything all mapped out. wanna know what it is? ask me and i might just tell you. tiesto is next weekend. can&

cheers.. testing only.

Just perfect, can't access my own blog, can't access fridae.com, can't even access gmail account. i wonder if its the hong kong internet or is it just me. sighs. woke up from a phone call this morning, then can't do nothing about it. perhaps i should just go down for breakfast at the local porridge shop. oh wells.. meeting is at 2.30pm so i might have a little time to chill out i suppose. its cold but cooling but warm, is there such a term? :P perhaps... just maybe....

Early morning day break and i missed it, coz am on the plane to HK, 2nd time that is. i wonder what's installed for me? i forsee lots of work and running around and carrying a server weighing about 30kg, no wonder i got muscles on my arms. hehe but that also be traced to something else. (evil grin) oh wells, catch up with you laters. :)

I Quote "I take back what is all mine and give you back what is all yours"; I Quote "I gracefully take what is rightfully mine"; I Quote "Service above self"; I Quote "20% more and I am in the no worry zone";

My heart beat like no other tonight, except for when I saw the love of my life for the first time through the looking glass and the first words that I utter was "What are you doing here?" I was shocked but I felt as if I floated above the clouds higher then cloud 9, when i felt her skin for the very first time. The very first moment our lips touched when she sat next to me, i felt the hot flush of red hot blood pumping through my blood. What was once the love I cherished will now forever be the memories that was once a love that could never die but as tony parson say, if you love them you will always love them and nobody can ever take it away from you. But tonight my body felt complete, i know so when the thumping of the heart tells me so. Nothing could have ever made me feel the way i felt tonight. Never have i ever such intensity, such emotion, such fulfilment that words cannot describe. Thank you, you know who you are.

went to orchard road today. nothing much had a great lengthy talk, what about i guess its as always whats wrong with me? fickle minded, undecided, obnoxious, ridiculous, emotional, vengeful, retarded, gulity, soft hearted. lol i didn't know so many words can be used to describe me. its friday already, am flying off soon to hong kong, no ash, ophelia isn't in hong kong, she's in melbourne now (prolly thats why am so eager to go back to melbourne) lol. so am going to just chill out in hk. nothing much maybe just clubbing as always hehe coz my collegue is there and she knows places! so much to do in the office am getting bogged big time. datelines are all around the corner. one in april, one in june, one in march, so many more in 2006 i wonder how did i get so hooked up, well am loving it! i see my future here, i want people to know who am i? i developed fridae.com!! woo hoo!!