The little ol me

My first weekend alone. Yay! it was comfortable and pleasing actually. loved it! finally slept till 12noon hehe.. :) not bad not bad.. its monday already and i am heading back to singapore in 5 hours time. had a great time at tgif. :) had a wonderful time at the mamak and loved the night drive back home on empty roads. the morning sunset was stunningly beautiful. love at last doesn't haunt my days and nights i am free.. and i am living it..

am tired of late nights! sighs.. this is rubbish! i am rubbish.. missing u doesn't help either.. i know ur loading this blog up everyday. :) i know everyone is. everyone seems to want to know about my private life... well here it is........ am still here.. am not dead yet though i wish to be.. :P silly me i know but its all that i have longed for just that someone above thinks that my time isn't up yet..

round and round the merry go round i go. spinning away making myself dizzy, each time i pick myself i put myself on the merry go round again, drowning myself in a daze. not allowing reality to hit me on my face, not right now. minutes passes, hours go by, days drift by but its un-numbered. don't need to number it anymore, its floating and i can't put it order. never had the intention in doing so. i don't want to rely on numbers anymore they have lost all it's meaning. what's to come tomorrow? i don't know. future so blurry and so unsured off. why did i take the oppurtunity when i could have stayed back and live happily ever after? emotionally but financially unsound. is that what i want? is money everything to me? perhaps. what am i to do now? i can't ground myself here, never! home is still home. no matter how crowded, how smoky, how ridiculous, how digusting it is, its still home. it's still where my childhood years were spent. its still the pla...

so much has passed, so much has begun, so much has ended still i can't get the sorrow out of my heart. the display of the the invisible empty soul. i am nothing without you.. just a shadow passing through.. its a phase, but it's a long phase..

hhmm this body has no connection whatsoever with the title. just thought of the word diary and looked at an empty body so it becomes empty diary. wat have i been up too recently? nothing much. spent the whole week in singapore coz my ex was around. come to think of it.. i should continue my ex-files section but i think that can wait. 2 lazy i must say. definately not satisfied with this attitude of mine, then again who can change the way one thinks but themselves. chinese new year went by so fast that i barely took a breath at it. why? coz i was 2 busy working? or thinking about work that is. so much 2 do so little time. getting bored with the phrase alraedy, time to get a new one. what the heck, life live! oh well shall blog again when am more in the mood. laters.. :)