The little ol me

I never thought I could feel dull aches in the heart, its been a while since I felt it. Hmmmm Imma thinking .. I never thought I could still feel warm fuzzy feelings

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Jealousy can appear whenever we have a passionate fondness for someone, as common in loving friendships as romantic relationships. When we love anyone from a naked and non-controlling place in ourselves, we open our hearts to the unpredictable, untamable course of love. Jealousy activates our primal dependency issues and often a sense of infantile defenselessness. It can make us feel crazy, and do crazy things, because it taps into our uttermost vulnerability—our fear of potential abandonment. When we think that someone will steal someone away from us, or that someone else will become more important than us to our beloved friend, we can feel helpless and powerless. We face all the ways we feel inadequate, unattractive, and unlovable.

What a whirlwind 9 years it has been but I still love the job that I do daily, should I go or should I stay? Will they keep me on? How far can I go? Will they allow me to go far? Would I be content? Would I wanna grow? I love the people. Maybe I need to pick a new skill?

It ended a long time ago but I was just too stubborn to see and make the change and after doing so regret to some extend the consequences of my actions. This was what I've wanted to happen so that we can both become better person. It takes two hands to clap, it takes two to tango and it takes two sticks to make a pair of chopsticks. What is my take from this r/s? getting into a comfort zone is a bad thing, it changes the person you are into a person that you would not have recognise a few years down the track. Never let go of your personality, make some tweaks but don't change completely, it will only get you lost in what you forget initially ever wanted but then in having said that I did the exact opposite. I tried so hard to move forward but I eventually take 2 steps back. Some people will always wanna feel special on their birthdays only even if you try to make everyday or every other day a special one, to some degree that the arguments just leads to more grief and unhap

Today was the day that I took your plates away. You will now belong to a new owner. You have served me well and very well to that. I will miss you but life must go on. Went to VicRoads today to hold my personal plates whilst I gave my ex-car a new normal rego plates. I feel sad. But in comes my new Love of my LIFE! Finally after such a long time I get one to call my own! It's an additional $17,500 out of pocket for a car change. Is it worth while? I hope so. Hope this baby takes me through at least 3 years without any serious issues. *cross fingers*