The little ol me

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Jealousy can appear whenever we have a passionate fondness for someone, as common in loving friendships as romantic relationships. When we love anyone from a naked and non-controlling place in ourselves, we open our hearts to the unpredictable, untamable course of love. Jealousy activates our primal dependency issues and often a sense of infantile defenselessness. It can make us feel crazy, and do crazy things, because it taps into our uttermost vulnerability—our fear of potential abandonment. When we think that someone will steal someone away from us, or that someone else will become more important than us to our beloved friend, we can feel helpless and powerless. We face all the ways we feel inadequate, unattractive, and unlovable.

What a whirlwind 9 years it has been but I still love the job that I do daily, should I go or should I stay? Will they keep me on? How far can I go? Will they allow me to go far? Would I be content? Would I wanna grow? I love the people. Maybe I need to pick a new skill?